It doesn’t even hurt; the fact that you’re not in my life anymore. I’m dealing quite fine in that sense.
The thing bugging me the most is the lack of knowledge you have of how hurt I am. How damaged I feel. There’s no sincere apology, there’s not even some smart ass ‘oh, whatever, sorry’. No recognition that I did absolutely nothing wrong, and that I didn’t deserve this pain. No one does. This is brutal. It’s all I’ve seen, all I know; relationships fail. My mom was cheated on.. and my asshole dad is still with the woman. You leave me and you’re back with her! You’re right.. you don’t deserve me. The only two people you deserve include the chick you were always hoping to be with in the end (I was the 9 month freaken rebound), and an ex friend of mine that know’s she’s going to hell.
I hurt, so badly. .
And I don’t want to make it seem like I’m whinning, or asking for pity, all I want is to know that you know this is your fault, you’re choice, to hurt an innocent person, be controlling and have no feelings toward them after burning them.
I think about the person I lost, but then I realize.. he lost me.
